Hey, guess what?? God does show up!

Life is hard.  It has been hard for a long time.  I find myself doubting whether God will ever show up, and then, He does... In just the right way, at just the right time.  Now I am not going to get all religious on you all here so you can keep reading.
This past week we realized that Liam was headed down the same path that Finn headed down three years ago, needless to say our hearts are broken.  All of the same questions went though our head as we watched our once happy baby start to struggle and suffer.  Puking and feeding intolerance and weight loss and flash backs of all that we have been through with sweet Finny.  So in a rare moment of clarity we have decided to put Liam back on breast milk, my baby boy has turned around in four short days!!!  Thanks to some AMAZING momma's we have donor milk overflowing!! (and even though we still need lots more to keep going I am certain there will be milk)
I love the idea that it takes a village to raise a child and man oh man we have an amazing village helping raise our babies!!! 

This past week Sweetness got a SUPER surprise!!  I feel like I need to give you a little history before I tell you about the surprise!  Back in October during the Energy for Life walk a sweet lady was going for her run and ran right into the event.  She was taken by the walk posters and after talking with some families decided to pitch a story for cbs' America Now.  Soooo Finny is going to be on TV!  More on that in another post.

During the interview Finn said that he wanted to be a firefighter when he grows up and a connection was made so that Finny could meet a REAL firefighter!  And HOLY MOLY!  He was SO beside himself at the chance to talk to a real firefighter and touch the gear (and way too excited he got his own!!)  I rarely see my sweet boy so excited, it was all that I could do to keep the tears from flowing as I watched the joy in my sweetness.  Check out some pictures!  (I'll add more soon, darn phone...)

















So, life is still hard.  Daily I long for the day when everything sad will be made untrue.  But...  God still shows up, he is still in our everyday mess even when I despair so much that I cannot see anything but blank.

Fall is upon us!  This is my favorite season, cool days, drier air and beauty all around.  Fall also brings with it the imminent cold and flu season.  Sweetness has already had bronchitis but after two antibiotics and a week of nebulizer treatments he barely has a cough.  We have had nursing here everyday and today was the first day since she started that Finn has actually been Sweetness and not Angry Finn.  It breaks my heart to realize how bad he must feel most days after we have days like today.  We hit up the Endocrinologist this past week.  It was a bittersweet appointment.  Finn's pancreas is failing him.  Being on continuous feeds is wearing it out and by the end of the day it is barely working. BUT without the continuous feeds his blood sugar plummets.  His "diabetes levels" A1c's are still right below normal so that is fantastic but we are looking forward to a time where he can no longer control his sugars on his own.  So, we wait, thankful it isn't as bad as we thought (blood sugars have been in the high 300s) and sad that something else is being affected by this damn disease.

 I love this picture...  Cadence wanted to be a butterfly for Halloween and Finn had to follow suit but his poor wings have lost all their strength.  Silly but it reminds me of what mitochondrial disease has done to his body.

PURE JOY

Things could not have gone better on Tuesday.  Anesthesia was very prepared for my sweet boy and things went as planned and better!!  His adenoids already had 2 more large abscesses on them so the doctor cultured them just to make sure we were covering them with the Omnicef that we are giving him.  Cultures come back tomorrow.  We were able to come home the same day and other than pain and grumpiness Finn is rebounding nicely!  I came home to find that Cadence and Liam were sick with fevers and Liam has a nasty cough.  Finnster hasn't caught it yet so we are praying that he doesn't because that would land us back in the hospital.

This Saturday is the 2nd Energy for Life Walkathon!!  This is something that I am fully invested in, I like to call my involvement my new life passion.  The UMDF is an amazing organization that is dedicated to finding a cure for Mitochondrial disease.  I invite you to join us Saturday morning at 9am at Freedom park as we walk for Finn!!  http://www.energyforlifewalk.org/c.aiILIZNMKkK0F/b.6700253/k.8E5D/Join_a_Team/siteapps/teampage/ShowPage.aspx?c=aiILIZNMKkK0F&b=6700253&sid=ktJ1IcOPIeLUIbOKKoH

and the Ipad saves the day again!!

Amazed with the gloves after some good medication!

Post surgery daze

Tomorrow's the day...

Tomorrow's the day.  Surgery is a big deal for any child/parent and we are no exception.  I want to share a little of why surgery is a big deal for our sweetness.
Finn is the first case of the day tomorrow morning which means for us a 5 am arrival time.  There are a lot of reasons why it is so important that Finn go first tomorrow.
  Fasting is something that Finn cannot do, he is fed through his gtube 24/7 because even a few hours without feeding cause his body to start to go into acidosis and that causes ALOT of trouble (think marathon runner at the end of a race) and for surgery they want him to have nothing in his belly so we get IV fluids of sugar before hand to head that off.
  Finn has a reaction to anesthesia called Malignant Hyperthermia (MH).  This is a condition where his body temperature rapidly rises after recieving general anesthesia and severe muscle cramping.  Finn gets monitored very closely after any procedure and has to have all of the "gas lines" completely cleared before he gets any sedation.  (in anesthesiologist language PAIN IN THE ASS if you aren't the first kid of the day)
   Stress in general is not good for our sweet boy that means pain, heat, cold and on and on and on.  His sweet body cannot handle it, so of course surgery and removal of things makes for a sticky situation.  We do our best to avoid all of this but reality is stress is apart of life, it happens.  All we can do is prepare his body and be vigilant to react when he starts getting into trouble.
  The hardest part of all of this is that while most of the anesthesiologists know about mitochondrial disease the don't KNOW mitochondrial disease.   I am Finn's mommy not his doctor but there are a lot of times that I feel like I am educating the people who have my son's life in there hands and that scares the shit out of me.  This is why we walk, why I raise money for the UMDF, why spreading awareness is SO important to me.  I want a doctor here in Charlotte that KNOWS this disease, I don't want to have to have a doctor hundreds of miles away caring for my baby.

  So tomorrow please pray for us, for our sweet boy, for the doctors AND for a cure.

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